Tuesday, August 25, 2020

All grown up

 My granddaughter Jayle has transformed before our eyes into a bright and beautiful young lady who will turn 18 years old this October.  She is considering going to college and I wish her the best.  So proud of the person she has grown into.  

She has resembled her mother in so many ways over the years, and as she gets older the similarities are more evident.  I am so blessed to call her granddaughter.  She is my little drop of Getzia, as I always called her growing up.

It is worth noting that I am very grateful to her stepmother Raisa, who has always treated Jayleanna 'Jay' as one of her children.  I have to be fair and say that it is an admirable quality in a woman.  I thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you have done for my granddaughter.  



Jayle at almost 18 years old





My daughter, Getzia at 22 years old



Jayle at 3 years old

  


Monday, August 17, 2020

Musings

 I know it is the middle of August more or less.  Another birthday passed in May 8th.. another year without you, July 17... and your baby Jayleanna will turn 18 this October 27.  And somehow, it feels like it was only yesterday that you were still here... and no matter how much time has passed, the pain is still the same; the pain never ends.  I have just used as my fuel to go on, I have learned to live with it in a way I never knew I would ever have to.  I am getting older, and you will never see old age.  You are a beautiful spirit now.

I still talk to you, I still see glimpses of you... I know you are in the spirit world now, but you walk with me every day.  I feel you.  I smell your perfume in the air still.  I hear your voice... I laugh at the things you used to say, and get sad at the things that transpired when we argued... I am thankful that I carried you within me and grateful to have known you.  You were unique and special in every way, my angel.  And I will miss and love you for the rest of my life here on earth.  And, knowing I will see you again one day makes the wait even more special.   Until then, I will keep on loving you...

-Mommy