Thursday, July 17, 2014

Today we celebrate your life....



 
"The reality is that we don't forget, move on, and have closure, but rather we honor, we remember, and incorporate our deceased children and siblings into our lives in a new way. In fact, keeping memories of your loved one alive in your mind and heart is an important part of your healing journey." ~ Harriet Schiff, author of The Bereaved Parent


On your 9th Angelversary...


Today is my daughter Getzia's 9th anniversary in heaven.  As I think about her more and more, I miss her so much that it hurts sometimes.  I look at her baby Jayleanna, growing beautifully and resembling her mother in so many ways, and I am grateful for this wonderful present I was given.  I feel so blessed!

Today, I choose to celebrate her life.  She will forever be my daughter, even though she took a piece of my heart when she left.


Saturday, May 10, 2014

On your 31st birthday, my angel



Another birthday, another year,
With precious memories of one so dear,
Thoughts today of our lives together,
Hold a love that will live forever.
All my life I will miss you
As the years come and go,
But in my heart you will live forever,
Because I love you so.

It's been two days after your birthday, so this is sort of a belated birthday post.  Forgive me for not writing on that day; I spent the day in a sort of haze, between love and pain and the awareness of how blessed I am.  I felt so loved and appreciated by people who reached out to me on that day with loving kindness and compassion, especially by mothers who haven't lost a child, and whom I haven't met in person, but even though they might live far away, they reached out to me and showed me that I am not alone.  

 They looked at your picture and commented on how beautiful you are.  And I felt so proud and so sad at the same time.  My beautiful angel, you took part of my heart with you and that part of my heart now lives in heaven.  And I know you are by my side always.  I can feel you, especially when I'm feeling down.  I can feel your arms wrapped around me, telling me not to cry, because you don't want me to cry.  Because you are finally free from the pain that encompassed your last days on earth.  So I think about that, and I know I will see you again someday, and I feel hopeful and I can go on.  But until that day, I will continue to love and miss you, my beautiful angel...

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

I thought of you today


I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,

I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame

Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

On your 8th angelversary...


Today I am sad and is perfectly normal...
Losing your loved one is always sad, especially a child;
But I will carry with me today all the good memories
of the time we spent together and they will comfort me.

I still have the drawing of your little hand on a piece of paper, and all the I love you notes you wrote me when you were younger; looking at them brings back sweet memories...
Anniversaries are supposed to be happy, but not this one
but when a tear surfaces, I will say I love you, my angel;
I know you walk with me, always ....

~Mommy





Friday, July 12, 2013

Angel Moms


We have shared our tears and our sorrow,
We have given encouragement to each other,
Given hope for a brighter tomorrow,
We share the title of grieving mother.
Some of us lost older daughters or sons,
Who we watched grow over the years,
Some have lost their babies before their lives begun,
But no matter the age, we cry the same tears.
We understand each others pain,
The bond we share is very strong,
With each other there is no need to explain,
The path we walk is hard and long.
Our children brought us together,
They didn't want us on this journey alone,
They knew we needed each other,
To survive the pain of them being gone.
So take my hand my friend,
We may stumble and fall along the way,
But we'll get up and try again,
Because together we can make it day by day.
We can give each other hope,
We'll create a place where we belong,
Together we will find ways to cope,
Because we are Angel Moms and together we are strong!
Judi Walker

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Today




Today I was talking about you with my therapist and, for the first time in months, I started crying...
Just when it had become easier to talk about you without crying...
Just the thought of you gone brought tears to my eyes.  Not only that, but talking about the months prior to 
your departure from this world...
And I understand now that the pain of losing you is greater than me.  It is greater than words can explain.
It is a pain I will carry with me all of the days of my life...

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Friday, May 10, 2013

For grieving mothers





For the Mother who spends mother's day in grief...
for the mothers who have given life
which they have been bereaved of...
... The mothers who have no reason to celebrate,
because they have lost their sons or daughters...
the mothers who don't know where to turn on mother's day
so not to see all flowers on display for mothers, reminding them of their loss. For all the mothers who are ignored
because they are mothers no more.


Happy Mother's Day to the Mother in You
that will LIVE ON IN SILENCE!
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