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Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Valentine's Day


This is my angel Getzia and I, on 1999.  
It was my birthday celebration at a friend's house in East Hartford, CT.



On this day, as I looked at this picture of Getzia and I for my birthday, a lot of memories came rushing back: the way I felt on that day, the gratitude to my friend Everson and his daughters for the birthday party, and to his eldest daughter for baking me a wonderful strawbery and cream cake.  Looking back at this picture on my birthday, it's a bittersweet memory of a happy time on my life.

And, as I celebrated my birthday, I couldn't help but thinking about Jayle and missing her so much!  I hoped to see her walking through the door with a little plant for my birthday like she used to do before.  She would disappear with her auntie and go buy me a plant for Valentine's day.  I used to love that.
As I remembered, I prayed that she was okay, knowing that I would see her again.  Jayle is all I have left from my Getzia, and she means the world to me.  
As the day came to a close, and I laid in my bed, I prayed again that she was safe and warm where she is, and that she always have enough.  That angels surround her always and that she is  safe, happy, healthy and at peace.  And that she always be loved.  
Gramma loves you more than you will ever know, my sweet girl!

❤❤❤

Saturday, February 7, 2015

For your baby, Jayleanna (Jayle)




Today marks 7 months since I saw Jayle for the last time.  The day I had to send her back to her father, after she begged me not to let her go back to that house.  The day I cannot forget. 

Not a single day has gone by since that I don't pray for her; that I ask the angels to surround her, protect and guide her.  To let her know how much I love her, and that I would give anything just to see her and hold her in my arms again and tell her that everything is going to be okay.

I have to believe everything is going to work out for the best.  Every little thing is going to be alright.
Jayle, grandma loves you more than you will ever know.  And I will see you again, my sweet girl, I will see you again.

Love always, 
Grandma

Monday, August 11, 2014

A prayer for Jayleanna

My granddaughter Jayleanna is my late daughter Getzia's child.  She went back to her father's house on August 7, 2014.  She is so afraid of her father, that she began shaking and crying and screaming for me not to let her go back to that house after he threatened her on the phone that morning.  She said, "I know I'm in trouble, he will beat me, please grandma don't let me go back! "  My heart just sank on my chest. I called the police, and DCYF to protect my granddaughter, but no one would do anything unless there are physical scars.  

 I have tried to have these people listen to me, but DCYF will not have it.  This has been happening since Jayleanna was 4 years old.  To them, I am only a grandmother, I don't exist.  For years, I have been telling them my child is in danger with this man, with his extensive criminal record and now a registered sex offender.   What is wrong with this picture?  What has this child done to have to be subjected to this abuse by this man, both physical and emotional? 

I will not stop fighting for her until somebody listens.  Until there is change in the laws of this state.   Until she is safe by my side. I will not lose hope.  

 I will be saying this prayer every day from now on.  I will also ask the angels to protect her.  You are not alone, Jayle.  Grandma's here and I love you with all my heart.

  
Hold her hand, Jesus


Hold Jayle's hand, Jesus, hold her hand.

          Walk with her in the valley of her loneliness/pain/anxiety/distress and sorrows.

          Hold on to her, Jesus,when she's too afraid to think about her tomorrows.

          Let her lean on you, Jesus, when  she’s too weary to go on.

          Hold her hand, Jesus, through her days and nights until she sees the dawn.

Hold her hand, Jesus, hold Jayle's hand…

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Today we celebrate your life....



 
"The reality is that we don't forget, move on, and have closure, but rather we honor, we remember, and incorporate our deceased children and siblings into our lives in a new way. In fact, keeping memories of your loved one alive in your mind and heart is an important part of your healing journey." ~ Harriet Schiff, author of The Bereaved Parent


On your 9th Angelversary...


Today is my daughter Getzia's 9th anniversary in heaven.  As I think about her more and more, I miss her so much that it hurts sometimes.  I look at her baby Jayleanna, growing beautifully and resembling her mother in so many ways, and I am grateful for this wonderful present I was given.  I feel so blessed!

Today, I choose to celebrate her life.  She will forever be my daughter, even though she took a piece of my heart when she left.


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