For my angel Getzia

No one knew the torment, That you were going through; We only kept on seeing What we really wanted to. We saw the outward smile, But not your inner pain; We never really dreamt, That you would never smile again. Forgive us if we failed to see, What we could do to aid; Or if we failed to comprehend, How much you were afraid. We pray your mental anguish, Will now forever cease; And that your deep anxieties, Will be replaced...

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Your baby Jayleanna's birthday

My angel Getzia and baby Jayleanna She was born today... 4 days before Halloweeen... 9 years ago.  I remember being there with you to welcome her into the world.  She was a tiny 5 pound 9 ounce little thing... and you were only 6 pounds when you were born! As I sit here, I think about you and her... my little princess.  I miss both of you at this moment, but I know I will see you again one day, and I will see Jayle...

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On your angelversary (7/17/11)

  •✤❥✤❥✤❥✤❥• As you hold me close in memory, even though we are apart, my spirit will live on, there within your heart . I am with you always. •✤❥✤❥✤❥✤❥• When you lean on trusted friends and their caring hugs enfold you, within their loving arms, I'll be there to hold you. I am with you always. And beyond the far horizon when we'll finally be together, where love will be eternal and life will last forever. I am with you always. •✤❥✤❥✤❥✤❥•...

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A short message for you

I am sorting through my Jayle's pictures today.  Wanted to post them out so that the world can see how beautiful your little girl is, and how much she has grown.  She just resembles you so!  I am so proud of the little woman she has become.  So this little proud grandma will post her pictures into Facebook, and will continue doing so because it brings me comfort and I am so grateful to have been given such a wonderful...

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Precious Daughter

❤•´ *`•.❤ I Wish I Could See You One More Time  Come Walking Through My Door  But, I Know That Is Impossible  I Will Hear Your Voice No More  I Know You Can Feel My Tears  And You Don’t Want Me To Cry Yet,  My Heart Is Broken Because I Can’t Understand Why Someone So Precious Had To Die  I Pray That God Will Give Me Strength  And Somehow Get Me Through  As I Struggle With This Heartache  That...

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Mother's Day 2011

I am writing the day after Mother's Day and your birthday.  Sorry baby, I didn't have the strength to do it yesterday.  I was so sad that I couldn't even muster the strength to type anything. I was surrounded by people most of the afternoon, but could feel that familiar emptiness in my heart.  So I wrote last night before going to bed, but had a computer malfunction and lost everything.  It is just as well, because what...

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You are not alone

Somebody hears you when you think you are alone somebody listens to tears, puts a song in your inner moan. Somebody is grieving with you as you release all that pain; somebody will comfort you, if you will feel the peaceful rain. Somebody does not care if you name it Angel or Spirit or Ancestor or Grandmother: if you are crying, somebody will hear it. On those days of darkness when you wear a blanket blue somebody was always there protecting that which is you. I know your road is taking some rugged...

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In the Light

A shadow of joy flickered; it is me. I told you I wouldn't leave. My spirit is with you. My memories, my thoughts are imbedded deep in your heart.I still love you.   Do not for one moment think that you have been abandoned. I am in the Light. In the corner, in the hall, the car, the yard -- these are the places I stay with you.  My spirit rises every time you pray for me, but my energy comes closer...

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On a Saturday morning...

I am sitting at my kitchen table with your baby Jayle... well, not exactly a baby anymore, lol   She's already a grown 8-year-old, too tall for her age and beautiful just like you.   I know I've said this so many times, but she reminds me more and more of you every day... she is constantly humming songs, just like you used to do... in everything she does, she sings with her little voice... even making up lyrics as she goes...

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Mom And Her Children

Getzia R.I.P., Mom, Nadya and Dennis, 1999 This picture is the last one I have of the four of us... it was taken on Thanksgiving Day, 1999 at a friend's house. We used to get together at this house a lot; those were happy times when we went out clubbing together: mom and her kids... it felt good to take this picture, although my Nadya had an attitude... lol  Although you are now missing from the picture in physical form, you are...

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Angel Blessing

"Angels around us, angels beside us, angels within us. Angels are watching over you when times are good or stressed. Their wings wrap gently around you, whispering you are loved and blessed."  - Angel Blessing  ..* ( \(_)/ ) *.. *.. (_ /|\ _) ..*.* .   /___\   . *. ❤️ ❤️ ...

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My little drop of Getzia...

Miss Jayleanna (Jayle) Sanchez, my beautiful first granddaughter, and my angel Getzia's child.  She resembles her mother more and more every day.  That's why she is "my little drop of Getzia..." Yesterday I had my children and grandchildren together.  Nothing planned, it just happened like that, spur of the moment, kind of thing... it felt wonderful to be sitting at my kitchen table, listening to both Dennis and Nadya,...

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A Mother's Love - Forever in My Heart

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Right now I'm in a different place  And though we seem apart  I'm closer than I ever was  ... I'm there inside your heart I'm with you when you greet each day And while the sun shines bright I'm here to share the sunsets, too ... I'm with you every night I'm with you when the times are good To share a laugh or two, And if a tear should start to fall ... I'll still be there for you And when...

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Seasons Of Grief

Spring We that are in the spring of our grief Our days grow brighter and warm We are amazed at the renewal of our souls Our faith is like the new buds, and spring flowers It waits to explode forth To bring new color into our souls Summer We that are in the summer of our grief We look in wonder at our renewal It's like the new green grass The leaves upon the trees The sun shines down upon us It brings warmth to our souls We are...

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My Mom Is A Survivor

one of my daughter's own drawings... I call it "One eye"...  she used to hide one eye from me at times, and I thought the drawing does so appropriately explains it. -Mom My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said. But I can hear her crying at night when all others are in bed. I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand. She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand. But like the sands on the beach that...

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Dear Mommy (A poem)

my angel Getzia: beautiful always... When you wonder about the meaning of life and love Know that I am with you. Close your eyes and feel me kissing you In the gentle breeze across your cheek. When you begin to doubt that you shall ever see me again, Quiet your mind and hear me. I am in the whisper of the heavens Speaking of your love. When you lose your identity, When you question who you are, and where you are going, Open your...

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Never Alone

I feel you in the morning When at first I awake Your thought is with me With each decision I make You'd been around forever Since the first breath, I took Now I have to go on alone But for love, I need not look Cause by what you bestowed In our short time together Will last in my heart Forever and ever Although you've left And now walk above I'm never alone I'm wrapped in your love Enjoy now your long waited...

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Grieving a suicide - a personal perspective

Coming to terms with the death of a loved one is hard for anyone.  This is especially true when the cause of death was suicide which raises painful questions, doubts and fears.    While coping with the pain of an unexpected loss; families and friends of the deceased are often overwhelmed by feelings of blame, anger, abandonment, and guilt.  It is common for surviving family members to feel judged,...

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A mother's words of Gratitude - July 17, 2010

I was sitting on my porch just now, having some coffee while looking up to the sky and thanking my Creator for another day that He allows me to be on this earth. It was then and there that I made a very important discovery, the most important in my life: life does go on. The pain subsides as part of the healing process, and you are much stronger because of it! My daughter left this world in a horrible way. Being a mother, you don't want...

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Helping Yourself Heal When Your Child Dies

Allow Yourself to Mourn Your child has died. You are now faced with the difficult, but important, need to mourn. Mourning is the open expression of your thoughts and feelings regarding the death of your child. It is an essential part of healing. With the death of your child, your hopes, dreams, and plans for the future are turned upside down. You are beginning a journey that is often frightening, painful, and overwhelming. The death...

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